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Wednesday, February 27, 2008♥ 6:06 PM
here i m!
HO! :D
our tribe blog is suddenly bursting with life(posts)
and im here to post again!
remember this song?
A heart of worship
you did want our sacrifice and offerings
but a broken spirit nd a contrite heart
you will not despise
you will not despise
Lord a broken spirit and a contrite heart
Lord a heart of worship is what you desire
a heart that burns with passionate fire
a heart that's undivided in love you
(in spirit and truth)
yea, the one we sang on sunday! :D
and ever since that day i heard it on thurs, i dunno why but it kept replaying and replaying in my head. and somehow i knew that God was trying to tell me something, to tell me to have a broken spirit and contrite heart, a heart that longs for him. but really, i tried to be 'broken' before Him but somehow i just couldnt, i have no idea why. perhaps it was pride, i really dunno. i have to admit really i wasnt that close to God during the past few days/weeks cos of stuff, and i would just quickly do quiet time with God and im off to dreamland. yea and on sunday though i went for altar call, perhaps it was only 'partly broken' HAH it sounds weird. yea but anyway, so yesterday i did my 1 hour and i fell asleep! (again!) :/ and God somehow told me that verse that jesus told his disciples before he was arrested, ' pray that u will not fall into temptation, the spirit is willing, but the body is weak.' though i really really wanted to spend that 1 hour with God that day, somehow i ended up falling asleep. and He said that he knows my heart, he recognises my effort, and sees how much i've tried. and somehow i dunno how i just broke before me, and it suddenly just dawned on me how tiny and how i m really really nothing without him, that all i m , what i've achieve, is not me, but Him. (ok perhaps cos of the Lord's great blessings, i've maybe taken things for granted, like aiya dunno how to explain) anyway, my heart just felt 'full' again, even now as im typing! :D and i think God speaks to me through songs/lyrics! :D cos after that, the song 'from the inside out' kept replaying and replaying in my head! especially the first 2 lines. A thousand times I've failed, Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace it speaks for itself right. ok, this post is getting real long.
ok anyway, today for my 1 hour! i was determined NOT to fall asleep! :D and ok i think my 1 hour is a bit warped anyway i worshiped for 1/2 hour, (if not there's nothing to pray) and then i prayed and i almost almost fall asleep! my eyes were closed on my pillow, and then i suddenly realised 'AHHH im gonna sleeep!!!' then i remembered the verse! :D and i decided not to lie down, HAHA. and congrats i managed to spend 1 hour with God WITHOUT sleeping!! :DDD
YAY YAY YAY YAY
im so proud of myself, and i know God is v proud of me too! :D
anyway just wanted to share how awesome God is, and how im caught in his grace over and over again! :D
LOVE LOVE,
JOLINE!
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