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Friday, February 22, 2008♥ 6:41 PM
hello sweeties!
( ahhh the heart just screwed up the blogger!! )):
ok i feel like blogging though it izin my turn!
so i shall just blog! :D
its just barely a week since the 40 days fasting/no tv no games/ 1 hour daily with God thingy. and im already struggling. its hard, ITS REALLY HARD. and really, 1 hour a day is ALOT of time. and on monday,(the first day) i was like really really tired, and i really didnt feel like spending that 1 hour with God, honestly i wanted to just go and sleep. then i was thinking 'ok i today just do 1/2 hour then i slowly increase'. but then, i felt really bad, cos after all i had stood up and promised God. yea so in the end, i decided that fine i just do for 1 hour lah. ok then i pray for like 20 min, i had nothing to pray about anymore. and so i lie on my bed and close my eyes and ask God to tell me wat he wants to tell me if there is anything lah. and pray in tongues for like 2 min. and after that i just laid there and after a while, naturally i fell asleep!! :X and when i woke up, btw, my mum came into my room, thats how i woke up. and BOOM the 1 hour was over, and so i just went to bed. but then, i guessed God really told me what he wanted to tell me. that is :
the real challenge is not just spending 1 hour with Him, the real challenge is when u are really really busy, and u still choose to spend that 1 hour with Him, and put Him first, more important then all ur other stuff.
YEA.
but still, i find it really really hard, theres really nothing much to do in that 1 hour. the most i can pray is just like for 1/2 hour, and there was this one day i spent the other hour learning the choir songs, so thats considered praising him right? :D YAY.
and the fasting thingy is also really hard. like FOOD is really very impt to me, when im hungry, i eat, when im not hungry, i eat, when i have nothing better to do, i eat. when i see other eat, i eat. so, really fasting is soooo hard for me. and my friends find it really really weird why im not eating, cos im practically always eating. and i dont spend recess with them, which is really SAD ): and they ask, 'why are u always fasting? fast for wad?' and honestly i dunno how to answer them. :/
and and the tv thingy. i accidentally watched tv! and i dint even realised. i was like just looking at the tv, and i totally forgot, and them i suddenly remembered, and i quickly look away. on the bus also, its just such a habitual thing to look at the tv. DD:
OK. enough of my ranting :/
since i promised God, i will keep my word, and i believe that GOd will help me through it! and HE will help u all through it too! :D
ok, gtg. my stomach's really really HUNGRY!
LOVE,
JOLINE.
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